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Closer to Nowhere(2)
Author: Ellen Hopkins

   with a space between them.

   Oh, and now I’m sharing

   everything—home, parents,

   even my teacher—with my cousin.

   I’m not so okay with that.

 

 

Definition of Resent:


   Feel Bothered By


   Cal moved in

   a little more than a year ago.

   He wasn’t exactly a stranger.

   Aunt Caryn was his mom,

   and she and my mom were more

   than sisters. They were identical twins.

   Two halves of a whole,

   Mom called them.

   They were close, but they

   didn’t live near each other.

   Aunt Caryn moved to Arizona

   before Cal was born.

   She visited once in a while

   and came to a couple of family

   reunions. Talk about trouble!

   I guess when Aunt Caryn met

   Cal’s dad and dropped out

   of college, it made Grandma mad.

   They hardly talk at all anymore,

   Mom told me once. And when

   they do, they end up shouting.

   “So why does Aunt Caryn

   go to the reunions?” I asked.

   “Grandma’s always there.”

   Caryn still wants to be part

   of the family, and she wants

   Cal to know his relatives.

   “I think Grandma should

   forgive her,” I said.

   I think so, too. But my mother

   has a hard time with forgiveness.

   She thinks it’s a sign of weakness.

   Grandma still hadn’t forgiven

   her when Aunt Caryn died.

   I’ll never forget that day.

   Mom cried and cried.

   When she finally stopped,

   her face was so puffed up,

   I could barely see her eyes.

   I lost a piece of myself, she said.

   Maybe Cal living with us

   is like getting that piece back.

   Maybe that’s why Mom lets him

   get away with everything,

   from pranks to meltdowns to lies.

   I’m sorry, but I resent that.

   Try to find a little sympathy,

   Mom urges. After Caryn passed,

   things got pretty rough for Cal.

   His dad took him after

   the funeral, but the details

   of the next two years are a mystery.

   And no one’s giving out clues.

   You’ll have to wait for Cal to tell

   you, Mom says. It’s not up to me.

   Whatever happened, I feel sorry

   for Cal. If my mom died, I’d be lost.

   Cal must feel lost sometimes, too.

   So, yeah, I want to forgive his quirks.

 

 

Definition of Quirk:


   Weird Habit


   Still, Cal isn’t easy to live

   with. I like order. Routine.

   He’s the king of chaos.

   Our spare room is Cal’s lair

   now. Mom let him paint it

   charcoal and doesn’t even

   yell about the mess—

   greasy wrappers here,

   dirty clothes there.

   Imagine what’s crawling

   around in his closet!

   Gross.

   I have to share a bathroom

   with him, which might not

   be so bad, except he forgets

   to drop the toilet seat.

   I’ve splashed down

   in the dark

   more than once.

   Gross squared.

   Cal drinks milk straight

   from the carton,

   and brushes his teeth

   without toothpaste.

   Sometimes he doesn’t

   brush them at all.

   Gross cubed.

   Those are little things.

   But Cal has bigger problems.

   Like right now at school,

   we’re outside for recess.

   It never gets really cold here,

   but it’s early November. The sky

   is gray and the air is kind of sharp.

   Almost everyone is playing ball.

   Softball.

   Kickball.

   Tetherball.

   Basketball.

   But Cal is sitting against

   a wall of the sixth-grade

   building, face in a book.

   He reads, like, three a week.

   Our teacher, Mrs. Peabody,

   keeps telling him to slow down.

   Comprehension means more

   than word count, she says.

   But, no. He has to read more

   than anyone else, and asks

   for books that are long and

   advanced. Sometimes it seems

   like he’s showing off.

   The problem with that

   is it can draw the attention

   of bullies, especially those

   who think it’s hilarious

   to make someone freak out.

   There go two now,

   and they’re headed

   in Cal’s direction.

   This could be bad.

 

 

Definition of Intervene:


   Get Involved


   Vic Malloy is

   taller than average

   square

   buzz-cut

   meaner than snot.

   Bradley Jones is

   a head shorter

   round

   faux-hawked

   meaner than snot.

   They close in on Cal.

   I know what they’ve got in mind.

   Cal’s been in this school

   for a year. They’ve seen

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