“That’s terrible.”
“It is. That’s why I’m asking you to hold off until this is under control. I don’t think you’re in danger but...”
“I could be,” I finish for him. “I’m no stranger to the life. To your life. I know what I signed on for.”
James grabs both my arms and squeezes me. “I know you did, but I’ve put you in harm’s way one too many times. I won’t lose you or jeopardize this baby.” He stares at me long and hard.
“Maybe I shouldn’t go out tonight.”
“No. That’s not what I meant, babe. I want you to go and have a good time. Like I said you don’t need to worry. Club will take care of the problem and exterminate the infestation. I don’t want to intrude on your night. Though you should know I’ll have one of my men keeping an eye.”
“Okay.”
“Should call you dream maker, Lex. Cause you sure as fuck makin’ all mine come true.”
“If you get any sweeter, I’m going to think you’re an alien.” I lean up to kiss him. Then I look at the clock and scream. “I’m going to be late.”
“Thought we already established that.” Lacing his fingers through mine he walks me toward the closet. “I’m going downstairs because if I don’t, I’m going to strip you out of this robe and celebrate you having my baby.”
**
“Where have you been? Pam glares at me as I squeeze between Wylla Mae and Jules.
“I got held up.”
“Mhmm,” she says on a groan. “Time to catch up. These are for you.” She slides three shots in my direction.
I shake my head. “I’m not drinking.”
“And why not?”
“You know watching my figure and avoiding carbs. I gotta fit into my dress.”
“You ain’t ever been big a day in your life other than your chest and backside.”
“Ease up, sister,” Jules cuts in.
Pam narrows her eyes on me. “You’re lying. Out with it.”
“It’s nothing. I don’t want to drink. Geez. Get off my ass.”
“Mom has never been a big drinker.”
“Thank you, sweetheart. I’ll be fine with a water.”
“What kind of lame ass party you think this is? I got a reputation to uphold. Unless.” Her eyes widen and her lips stretch into a devious smirk. “He knocked you up, didn’t he?”
I shake my head. Damn Pam and her meddling and always in everyone’s business. “We can have a good time without getting shitfaced.” I swirl my straw around in the ice water my daughter pushed in front of me.
“If you say so, but this is a kid free night mind you, and I intend to take advantage.”
“My not drinking isn’t stopping you.”
“It’s no fun to drink alone.”
Wylla Mae chews on her bottom lip and Jules looks away.
“What’s with you two?”
“Go ahead and tell her,” Pam presses then downs the shots I refused.
Jules sips her Coke. “Roane and I are having another baby. I wanted to wait until after the wedding before I said anything.” A sheepish smile crosses her features.
“And you?” I turn to my daughter.
“Um. You see...what happened was...”
“Pfft. We know what happened,” Pam cuts her off with a snort. “East couldn’t wait the six weeks after Mila was born for her to start birth control and went and knocked her up again.”
“Seriously? I thought you were planning to go back to school. I’m going to kill him. What about your plans?”
“I can still go back.”
“And who is going to be changing all these diapers while you’re at school? I tell you who it won’t be is me.”
“Wow. Some things never change.”
“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean that. I’m just stressed from the wedding,” I lie. What the hell were James and I thinking? Wylla Mae still needs me. What will people think? Mom and daughter pregnant at the same time? I know what James will say. Fuck them. Who cares? I shouldn’t care. It’s stupid. I deserve to be happy. We deserve to be happy. “I’m pregnant too,” I blurt out. “But you can’t say anything yet. James wants to wait.”
“Fuckin’ knew it,” Pam mutters then she smiles big at me. “You bitches are gonna get on my damn nerves. I need new friends. Probably planned this shit together. Don’t think I don’t know the two of you go shopping and shit without me all the damn time.”
“You’re unbelievable,” Jules starts.
“I know I am. Link says the same thing every time I give him head.” She cackles.
“I’m starving.” I change the subject and pick up a menu. “Tonight calls for steak.”
“Now that we can agree on.”
“How are things coming along with the new house?”
“It won’t be ready until summer and James is driving me crazy at my house. The man is worse than a child. He never puts the toilet seat down and leaves the cap off the toothpaste. He leaves his deodorant on the sink. But it’s not all bad. He does the dishes.”
“And fucks you morning, noon, and night from what I hear.”
“Yes, there is that.” I grin.
“Eww. I don’t want to hear about your sex life with my father.”
“We need to plan how we are crashing Murder’s bachelor party,” Pam cuts in. “I was thinking we bring her out of one of those fake cakes.”
“Alexa pops out of a cake naked in front of his men Murder will kill us all,” Jules says.
“You aren’t wrong,” I mutter and take a long drink of water.
“Ya’ll are no fun.”
“Who is keeping the kids?”
“Link’s sister and her girls,” Pam announces.
My brows knit. “I didn’t know he had a sister.”
“You got a lot to learn about your husband’s men.” Pam grins. “But don’t worry I got you.”
I don’t know what to make of Pam. She always hated me, but she’s been really cool lately. Like maybe a certain cranky biker had a word with her or her man about her treatment of me. Either way I’m glad she’s being nice, even if it does kind of scare me.
Chapter Four
“How was your little shindig with the girls?”
“It was good.”
“Didn’t stay very long.”
“Well about an hour into dinner Wylla Mae was getting nauseated and Jules and Pam needed to relieve Link and Roane from baby duty. And there’s the fact that both Jules and Wylla announced they are pregnant again.”
“Fuckin’ hell. Need to invest in diapers. You tell them?”
“Yeah, but they won’t say anything.”
“It’s okay, babe. Couldn’t hold that shit in either and told East. Called Lily.”
“You think it’ll be weird?”
“What?” He opens his arms to me as I kick my shoes off. I drop onto my as he calls it ugly, mustard, baby shit colored couch and into his arms.