CHAPTER 4
May 1941
“You know the theory better than I do, Katya—better than half the instructors. Why do you pore over your books at every chance?” Vanya chided as he playfully collided into me in the hallway.
“I can’t control how many hours I get to fly, but I can control how well I know the techniques.”
I rolled my eyes at his shrug. It all came easily to him, or so he made it seem. Vanya’s assessment of Tokarev’s ankle had been correct—badly broken and torn tendons to boot. One act of clumsiness—falling out of his bunk—and he was grounded for the rest of the year and would finish his training after he healed. It would keep him from conscription off to Poland or the Baltic for several months, at least. Apparently he bore that news with a measure of good cheer, and I couldn’t say I blamed him.
“All you girls are the same,” Vanya said. “You might make better friends with the male pilots if you spoke to us every once in a while.”
“We’re not here to make friends; we’re here to fly,” I countered, turning his earlier rebuke on him. And we have to be better and faster than you to have the chance to be taken seriously.
“You need an afternoon away from your books,” he announced. “We have nothing scheduled, miraculous as that sounds. Drop off your bag in your barracks, and change into civilian clothes. Something nice, but sturdy shoes.”
“I need to study,” I said, not bothering to soften my tone.
“I’ve told you, part of what makes a good navigator is knowing her pilot as well as she knows herself. Consider this a valuable part of your training.”
I wanted to argue, but he was right. And the prospect of an afternoon away from the steel and concrete was deliciously enticing.
“Fine,” I said. “But tell me where we’re going.”
“To enjoy the outdoors. That’s all I’ll say. Meet me here in fifteen minutes.” He tempered his words with a wink, and I cursed myself for not coming back with an appropriately biting reply.
Every female cadet in the academy was sprawled on her bunk, manuals and notebooks strewn before her. Taisiya sat perched over hers, her pen scribbling furiously with her right hand while she clutched her text with the left.
“Quiz me,” she said, not looking up from her book.
“I can’t,” I said, flipping open the lid of my footlocker and unbuttoning my uniform jacket.
Taisiya cast her eyes over the top of her manual, wordlessly awaiting explanation.
“Vanya asked me to spend the afternoon with him,” I said in low tones, but not a whisper. There was no sense in hiding the truth. The academy was too small for secrets. If I tried to hide it, it would cause more talk and lead to even more trouble.
“Don’t let him become a distraction,” she warned, and cast her eyes back to the text.
Perhaps I need one. It’s been a long three years.
“Hardly. But he’s asked me to spend the afternoon out, and he’s saved my rear with Karlov. I can’t tell him no. He’s my pilot, and we need to know one another better than we do.”
“Be careful, Katya,” she cautioned.
“Don’t be that way, Taisiya,” I said, pawing through my meager pile of clothes. “You defect over to the men’s tables to eat with Poda from time to time.”
“I have Matvei, and he knows it. We keep our discussions to aircraft, navigation, and the weather. The latter only when it affects the former,” she said, her notebook now discarded onto the bed instead of perched on her knee.
“And it’s the same for Vanya and me,” I said, unable to keep all the annoyance from escaping the footlocker, where my head was buried. “None of this is against regulation.”
“Yet,” Taisiya pointed out. “We haven’t been allowed here long enough for them to write it down yet.”
There was something to be said for the simplicity of my wardrobe. I owned exactly one summer dress worth looking at, a simple thing that had been Mama’s. It was a lovely shade of turquoise blue that complemented my eyes, and it was in good repair, being too light to wear for more than two or three months out of the year. Taisiya looked as though she wanted to comment on my choice of dress. She knew it was the best I had, but to her credit she knew she’d already spoken her piece.
I threw on the dress, loosened my hair from its bun, and ran a comb through it to force the auburn waves to frame my face, hoping the countless hours trapped in pins didn’t give my hair the appearance of a dented tin can. All the while, as I exchanged my uniform for everyday wear—my finest at that—I could feel the eyes of my sisters in arms on my every movement. I could all but hear their thoughts: She’s fallen for him, and it’s going to cost her wings.
“I’m just sick of itchy uniforms,” I mumbled lamely. And tired of dressing like a man all the time.
Taisiya nodded; I knew everyone in the room had to understand. As much as we wanted to fly, denying our own womanhood most every hour of the day was exhausting. On a lark I grabbed the battered case with my papa’s old violin along with my thinnest wrap. As I exited the barracks to the world beyond, part of me felt compelled to turn around and spend the afternoon quizzing Taisiya and studying with the others, but I couldn’t bring myself to turn back.
Vanya greeted me at the exit to the barracks with a massive case in his left hand. He’d exchanged his uniform for a smart-looking suit of civilian clothes in a deep navy blue that complemented his complexion far better than the dismal greens and browns of military uniforms.
“Dear Lord, how long do you plan on keeping me out?” I said, pointing to the case. “I was expecting an afternoon off campus, not a two-week pleasure cruise.”
“You clearly aren’t entirely opposed to the idea. You brought a case of your own.”
“My papa’s violin. I haven’t played in ages, and since you told me we’d be going outside, I thought I’d bring it. The great outdoors is my favorite concert hall.”
“Perfect,” he said, offering me his arm and escorting me out into the vibrant late spring sun. I liked the feel of my arm in his but reminded myself it was no more of a gesture than he would offer his maiden aunt. “An exchange of talents it is.”
We walked for a half hour until we breached the perimeter of Chelyabinsk and found ourselves in a meadow surrounded by evergreens. Vanya placed the case on the damp grass and knelt before it. He removed a large woolen blanket crafted from soft ivory yarn, probably hand knit by his mother to while away some of the long winter hours in years past. With a flourish he spread the blanket out as a barrier against the soggy ground. He gave no thought to how the pale fibers would come clean; it would never have occurred to him.
“Sit,” he ordered. “Make yourself comfortable.”
He took off his suit jacket, placed it on the blanket opposite me, and turned his attentions to his case a few feet away from where I sat in the center of the meadow. He removed a wooden frame that he quickly unfolded and assembled into an easel, and placed a blank canvas on its waiting ledge. “The light is spectacular,” he explained as he mixed colors from tubes on his palette. “I’ve always wanted to paint here.”