That’s why I’m eating in a secluded corner in the school’s garden. I never liked the pretentious air of the cafeteria, anyway. Levi turning the entire school against me is more proof of why I’ll never belong in this circle.
And by a circle, I mean the entire football team who are always following him about like they’re the subjects in his royal court.
There’s this aura about those he keeps close. They’re called the four horsemen by RES and they carry all the destructive energy that Levi needs.
All of them are ruthless in their own way — even the silent ones.
Since my invisible days, I waited for any rebellion against the entitled arseholes.
Didn’t happen so far.
Everyone ends up dropping to one knee like willing peasants.
Even Dan belongs to their circle, so I can’t be the type of bitch who badmouths shitty, entitled athletes in front of him.
I can do it in my mind just fine, though.
Sitting cross-legged on the bench, I take a bite of my hamburger and sketch with my free hand. My shrink and physical therapist told me to take it easy, but I’m not good at listening to orders.
Besides, things have been changing with weird dreams — or nightmares — I’ve been having lately.
I can’t even recall what I saw when I wake up. I just wake up drenched in sweat and feeling claustrophobic.
Dr Edmonds, my shrink, said I might be witnessing flashbacks from the accident.
I came up with a theory.
My inability to sketch properly might have to do with what happened during the accident. Maybe I can remember what happened if I push myself to sketch something — anything — from that night.
Every time, like now, Levi’s infuriating face comes to mind.
I scratch whatever I’ve been sketching and huff around the mouthful of hamburger.
Muse-killing arsehole.
“Hey, bugger. What are you doing over here hiding?”
“Avoiding entitled football players. No offence, bug.” What? I didn’t say I wouldn’t say anything.
“It’s taken, damn you.” He chuckles around the words.
That’s Dan and I. It’s a friendship made in heaven. Or in a pool.
The thing is, when I first moved in with Dad, he had Nicole take me to a party so I’d meet friends.
As if I would ever be interested in Nicole’s friends.
So, anyway, I didn’t want to go, but I’m glad I did.
Of course, Nicole abandoned me as soon as we arrived. Feelings were mutual, thank you very much.
So, I was there, in a secluded area by the pool minding my own business and drinking diluted tequila. And okay, I might have been staring at my Sun-Moon-Star tattoo and crying about my mum.
Then someone comes shouting. “Holy shit. Is that a bug?”
That was Dan and he mistook my star tattoo for a bug. I punched him for saying that about Mum’s last tattoo. He was drunk so he kind of fell into the pool and didn’t surface, and I thought I killed him or something.
So here I was pulling him out, crying and telling him I didn’t want to be a murderer. He opened his eyes laughing.
I talked to him about Mum and he told me about his grandma that he also lost recently.
Since then, we became inseparable. Best beginning of a friendship ever.
That’s why I know that Dan and I are tight even when I make fun of his team.
But hey, he once saw an impressionist painting and told me it looked like cockroaches walked on it.
It’s mutual and totally fair.
I peek up at him as he slides beside me with a stupid grin on his face.
“What?” I can’t help but grin back.
“I have huge news.”
Still cross-legged, I face him, his happiness rubbing on me. “Well? Are you going to have me beg you to say it?”
“That’ll work, too.” He waggles his eyebrows. “Like you begged Captain.”
“Oh, please. Not you, too, bug.”
“What? I’m wounded I had to hear about it like everyone else. I’m the best friend and should get inside scoop.” He shakes his head in mock sadness. “I’m telling you, our friendship is on a rocky path.”
I roll my eyes.
“You can fix it by telling me how you begged for it.” His eyes spark. “On your knees? On your back? Sixty-Nine? Or maybe— ”
I throw a small rock at his chest, shutting him up. “I told you it didn’t go that far. It was the drugs.”
He’s silent for a second. “I don’t think the drugs make you want someone you never wanted before.”
“How would you know that?”
He lifts a shoulder. “Just saying.”
“Whatever that means. Are you going to tell me your huge news?”
“Two words, baby.” He lifts his index and middle fingers. “Starting. Lineup.”
“What?”
“Coach chose me for the upcoming game’s starting lineup!”
“Wow, that’s great, Dan.” I can’t fake my enthusiasm no matter how much I try to.
He laughs before it all disappears and he gives me his poker face. “Your disinterest is showing, bugger.”
“Sorry, but I thought you didn’t care for the football team anymore?”
“Hell no! I said they don’t care for me.” He rubs his hands together with mischievousness and achievement written all over his face. “I knew my time would come! No more benching.”
“I knew you could do it.” I clasp his shoulder in a bro hug. “I’m proud of you, mate.”
“Hell yeah, baby. I’m proud of me!” He slaps his hand in the air as if he’s swatting an imaginary arse. “Can you imagine the number of girls who’ll be throwing themselves at me after the game?”
“You’re seriously a pig. Is that all you want to play football for?”
“It’s a primary reason. My to-do list will expand with this shit.” He snatches my half-eaten Hamburger and finishes it in two, huge bites. “There’s also all that glorious cheering and adrenaline. You’ll love it.”
“No, bug. Football and I aren’t friends, remember?”
“You promised,” he says over a mouthful of hamburger.
“No, I didn’t.”
“First year.” He switches to a calm, posh accent like some old BBC news anchor and fakes holding a mic. “When Daniel and Astrid first became friends, Astrid told him she hates football and Daniel told her he hates art. So they agreed to never fake interest for each other. However, Daniel promised to attend Astrid’s exhibition if she has one. In return, Astrid promised to attend Daniel’s games if he becomes a starter.”
“Ugh. I did.”
“Yes, you did, bugger.” He waggles an eyebrow, doing a mic drop motion. “You’re keeping that promise. Saturday night. Home game. We’re kicking some arse this season.”
There goes my plan to drag Dan with me to a museum.
“This is the captain’s last year and he’s so going to nail it.”
I hit his shoulder again. “Hey, bug, I might be attending your game, but save me the idolisation of Levi when he’s actively ruining my life.”
“Maybe you shouldn’t push against him. He’s King.”