Except for the mandatory work detail, Edward declined to join in their activities. Daria soon wished he would. Even a raging, drunk, brutish Edward would be better than one who shuffled from one narrow end of their barracks to the other. The one who sat on the edge of their bunk, eyes on the ground, humming quietly to himself. Daria attempted to engage him in conversation, if nothing else. Her own days were spent in near silence. Even if Daria weren’t too bone-weary to exchange a few words with the women farming alongside her, opening her chapped lips or shifting her cracked cheeks was agony, to be risked only under the most dire of circumstances. She doubted they’d be able to hear her over the wind, anyway.
The surfeit of words congested inside Daria. She arrived back at the barracks each night bursting with them, in a frenzy finally to vomit out everything she’d kept to herself during the day, starved for human contact and connection. Daria tried to make her stories amusing for the girls, turning what had been a bitter incident into a funny one, filtering through the ugly moments to dredge up even a second of beauty, of kindness, of hope. She didn’t want to upset Alyssa and Anya any further than they already were, and she didn’t want them to worry about her while she was away. So instead of talking about the guard who’d ruined days of their labor by kicking up the rows they’d planted “by accident,” Daria focused on the one who, at risk to himself, smuggled in a thermos of lukewarm tea he shared with his workers. When Daria relayed the story to Alyssa and Anya, she made it sound like they’d had themselves a regular tea party!
After they’d gone to sleep, though, Daria yearned to confess the darker aspect of her day to Edward. She wanted to vent. She wanted to complain. She wanted to whine, damn it. Was it too much to desire a modicum of sympathy? Daria would have been happy to do the same for Edward. Unfortunately, all it took was one look at her husband, and the words withered to sawdust in her throat. Every sound prompted Edward to startle. Loud noises made him shudder, and unexpected ones drove him deeper into the darkness of their bunk. Daria imagined if she opened her mouth and let loose with the stream of words she’d pent up for days, weeks, months, it would be akin to pummeling him with a barrage of freshly sharpened arrows.
So Daria kept her thoughts and her feelings to herself, stockpiling them the way she and the other women stockpiled rations for their children. While the men fought loudly—and impotently—the women quietly and efficiently traded clothes among themselves. They stole bones from the once-in-a-blue-moon scraps of dried fish they were accorded and fashioned them into needles they used to unravel a moth-ravaged muffler, repurposing its yarn to knit into socks, a hat. They scavenged for roots and berries, brewing folk remedies for the sick, forcing them down swollen throats, smearing them on wheezing chests.
But when it was Anya’s turn to be treated, Daria and Edward’s three-year-old remained delirious with fever, her breath coming in painful, desperate gasps after interminable periods of deathly silence. For the first few days of her illness, she’d managed to smile in between the hacking coughs as Edward, rousing himself from his stupor, wrapped their daughter in his arms to rub some warmth into her skin-and-bone limbs. Just like in the cattle car, Edward spent multiple nights distracting Anya with stories of magic flutes and a fiery Spanish temptress torn between a reckless officer and a dashing bullfighter. But soon, even the promise of another exotic tale from Papa wasn’t enough to rouse her.
“Pneumonia,” a woman from two barracks over diagnosed by putting her ear to Anya’s chest and listening to her struggling, fluid-filled lungs. She was a doctor who’d been banished after her husband, a geology professor at a Leningrad university, shared with his class a piece of shale he’d received from a colleague in Australia. Contact with foreign entities was always suspect.
“What can we do?” Daria asked, knowing they had no equipment or medicine. Edward sat next to her, holding Anya.
“Antipneumococcal antiserum.” The doctor uttered both words in the same fashion she might have said a fairy-tale goldfish that grants wishes.
Edward raised his head, the shell-shocked, submissive expression he now wore at all times, save when distracting Anya or humming to himself, cracking long enough for him to meekly suggest to his wife, “We could ask . . . Adam.”
Though he’d arrived in Kyril the same five months ago, Adam’s experience took a sharp turn. He’d been dispatched to the forest along with the rest of the men. Daria had been too preoccupied with Edward, pouring watery gruel down his throat as he gagged, rubbing homemade salve into his hands to stave off frostbite. She’d had no time or interest to gauge how Adam was adjusting. Until she noticed that he was gone. Prisoners—no, sorry, settlers—disappeared for two reasons. They were dead or—
“He’s been reassigned,” the man who’d slept below Adam, and scurried up to claim the abandoned bunk, told Daria. “Office staff.”
A settlement of Kyril’s size required massive amounts of paperwork. There were crop and logging output reports sorted by day, month, and season; supply requisitions; payroll for the local staff; and, of course, resource distribution, which included everything from the tiny seeds Daria planted uselessly to the ongoing construction of housing. Prisoners were utilized for administrative tasks, but they had to earn the privilege. Five months seemed a short time for Adam to move up the ranks. A transfer from the fields was merited by good behavior. Most frequently, though, it came about as a result of bribes. It didn’t take Daria long to figure out that many of the women she worked with were squirreling seeds in the folds of their ragged clothes in order to trade with those who’d already been liberated from the barracks and allowed to build their own homes, no more than glorified lean-tos, from whatever wood they could scavenge. These families would use the seeds to grow their own secret plots of food. Even some of the highest-ranking Party officials got in on the act. Though they were allowed more sturdy housing—doors, windows, roofs, floors, and other such luxuries—their diets were also limited to what Moscow shipped out to their employees, when they remembered. And when it didn’t rot on the way. As a result, their superiors either tried growing their own stash or, failing at it, traded with those who’d somehow succeeded in coaxing a crop from the frozen tundra.
But Adam hadn’t been in Kyril long enough to accumulate valuables to trade, had he? Daria wondered, as not only had Adam been excused from the most backbreaking work, he’d been issued one of the largest houses, built with prison labor, which he didn’t even have to share.
“Whose mother do you think he turned in this time?” Daria drawled to Edward when they’d first learned the news.
But now, her husband was suggesting maybe their former dvornik had somehow procured enough influence to get them the medicine Anya required.
“Write down what I need,” Daria urged the doctor. “I will go ask him.”
She was forced to wait until total darkness. Although, as they kept being reminded, they were not in prison, they could leave anytime they wished—if they were up for facing the brutal elements that stretched in every direction rather than taking advantage of Comrade Stalin’s generosity—unsanctioned movement was always a risk. Especially for women alone. Bored guards, restless townspeople, vengeful fellow exiles . . . anything could happen. It didn’t stop some women. Seeds and food weren’t the exclusive items traded.