Once the police and Natalie leave, I call my father, but he doesn’t pick up, which is not unusual. He’s terrible with his phone.
“Hey, Dad,” I say. “Keep a close eye on Rainie this afternoon, okay? I’ll explain later. I’m on my way home.”
Then I pack my briefcase and leave my office, carefully locking the door behind me.
* * *
I usually enjoy the walk from my office to the underground garage in downtown Greenville, sometimes stopping to pick up a cappuccino for the half-hour drive home to Round Hill, but this afternoon, I look over my shoulder with every step. I reach the garage and shudder as I walk into the shadows. The building absorbs the daylight and I nearly run to my car. Once inside the SUV, doors locked, I feel my heart thudding in my chest. I sit there for a moment, hands in my lap, thinking. Maybe I should put the new house on the market. Forget about moving in. Jackson and I had designed the house for ourselves and the family we hoped to create. At four thousand square feet it’s far too big for just Rainie and me. But I tear up at the thought of someone else living in the house we designed with so much love and hope.
I close my eyes. Let out a breath. Then I start the car. I’ll make the house a happy place. I’ll make happy memories there for Rainie.
I drive the car out of the dark parking garage and into the sunlight and it’s as if the light washes away my fear. That’s the problem with the house. It’s full of floor-to-ceiling windows, yet all the trees make it feel closed in. Jackson and I rhapsodized about being surrounded by all that gorgeous thick greenery. From the glassed-in rear of the house, all you can see is green, not another house in sight. Ours is considered the best and largest of the lots in the small development. Yet at that moment, I wish we’d picked a different lot. I wish we’d picked a different neighborhood altogether.
Chapter 4
ELLIE
1965
That Tuesday, I took Brenda out to lunch at the Round Hill Sandwich Shop. It was a bribe of sorts, although I didn’t think Brenda realized it. Her mind was so consumed by the fact that she would be marrying Garner on Saturday that she seemed to have forgotten she’d promised to go with me to Turner’s Bend after lunch. I wanted to see Reverend Filburn, the minister who’d been quoted in the newspaper article about the SCOPE program. I tried my best to focus on Brenda’s chatter, though. I worried that we were already drifting apart. Brenda would return to UNC with me the Monday after her wedding—no honeymoon for her and Garner—and she’d finish out the year, keeping her marriage and pregnancy a secret so she didn’t get kicked out of the dorm. She was moving in a direction I wouldn’t be able to relate to.
I watched her now as she added another spoonful of sugar to her sweet tea. She still looked like a teenager: turned-up nose, rosebud lips, and a curly blond halo of hair that set off her big baby-blue eyes. We’d never really shared the same interests: I’d loved school and science and reading; Brenda had loved music and movie magazines and boys. Aunt Carol would tease her. Who’s your heartthrob this week, Brenda? But somehow, Brenda and I connected, even more so once we started dating Reed and Garner. We double-dated all through high school, even after the guys went off to college. These days, we saw them on the weekends when we came home or when they came to Chapel Hill to take us out to dinner. Brenda was really my best and oldest friend. I’d never had many.
Now she looked up from stirring her tea. “Promise me we’ll stay friends,” she said, as if reading my thoughts.
“Absolutely,” I promised.
“I don’t know what’ll happen to us—to you and me—when I’m married and a mother and you’re still a … a coed.”
“We’ll have to make an effort to stay connected,” I said. It wouldn’t be easy. My pharmacology program was five years, so I still had three more years to go. “And Brenda.” I put on my most serious expression. “I know you wish Reed and I were as serious as you and Garner, but we’re just not. We’ve never even talked about marriage, and honestly, until I finish school, I can’t imagine marrying anyone.”
“You always say that, but that’s going to change,” Brenda said with unnerving certainty. “You’ll see. Reed is so wonderful. He’s only twenty-two and he graduated early and already has that desk job at the bank. He’s going to be the manager someday and I just hope you wake up and realize what a catch he is before it’s too late.”
She didn’t have to convince me that Reed was a catch. He was as close to perfect as anyone I knew. Smart. Movie-star handsome. Well respected at the bank, where he seemed to get a raise every month or so. Still, the thought of marrying him—or anyone—held no appeal for me.
When we finished our sandwiches and I’d paid our bill, I looked at my watch. “You ready?” I asked.
Brenda wrinkled her nose at me. “Do we really have to do this?” she asked. “Go to Turner’s Bend?”
I nodded, getting to my feet. “Come on,” I said. “It won’t take long. Then I’ll drive you to Garner’s.”
Brenda stood up and followed me out of the restaurant, walking next to me once we reached the sidewalk. “What’s SCOPE stand for again?” she asked.
“Summer Community Organization and Political Education.”
“Sounds deadly dull.” She slipped her arm through mine. “I just don’t understand why you want to do this, honey,” she said. “The colored voting thing. I don’t get it.”
We’d reached my car and I opened the door for her. I’d gotten the red Ford when I started college so I could make that two-hour trip to Carolina on my own. The car was a junker for sure, but Buddy had fixed it up well enough that it did what I needed it to do. My brother was a mechanical genius who’d opened his own car-repair shop when he was barely nineteen years old.
I shrugged as I got in behind the steering wheel. “Because it’s the right thing to do.”
“I hoped you got it out of your system that time on Franklin Street. What did that get you? Holes in your stockings and a record for being arrested.”
“I was detained, not arrested. And anyhow, it wasn’t about what it got me. It made a difference. That café finally opened its doors to everybody, so it worked, right?”
“I suppose,” she admitted, but I could tell she wasn’t convinced.
I pulled out of the parking space. With the car closed up, I could smell the Aqua Net in Brenda’s curly hair. I’d been letting my strawberry-blond hair dry straight. It was nearly to my shoulders now and I liked how it swung around my face when I danced.
I glanced at Brenda’s beige slacks. I’d asked her to wear a skirt, since we were going into a church, but either she forgot or she hoped she could talk me out of going. I was wearing a cranberry-colored skirt, a white blouse, and my black flats. I looked like I was ready for a job interview.
I’d cut the article about the SCOPE program from the newspaper and taken it to bed with me the night after my father read it to us. I’d read it at least a dozen times since then. The students were all from the North or out west. Mama had been right. It was exactly the sort of thing Aunt Carol would have done as a student when she lived in New York. Would SCOPE take a Southerner? I couldn’t see why not, as long as I was committed to the cause. Plus, I knew Derby County better than any of those outsiders ever would.