"Okay," Ella slapped her hand on the table, pointing at me. "We've got this."
She looked around at the group. "Collins, can you take the twins?"
"On it," Collins agreed, reaching for her phone. "I'll tell Nick we're taking them for two…?"
"Two," Ella agreed.
"Two nights."
"I'll take Sofia," Anika offered, pushing the wine bottle closer. "Ella?"
"And I've got Matt," Ella said with a final nod. "We'll be by tomorrow around five. That'll give you an hour to primp before they finish work."
"I'll bring food too. Something decadent and perfect for a night of debauchery." Anika grinned, flicking her hair back.
"You guys…." Tears burned, threatening to fall. "This is too much."
"Nope, don't you say a word. We're mothers, women and bad ass friends. We're all in this together."
"Agreed!"
"Here, here!"
They clinked glasses as I tried to subtly wipe the wet from my lashes.
"Alright, now… lingerie?"
I giggled, feeling the flutters of hope in my belly. "I might need to go get something."
"Well, what are we waiting for?" Collins asked, pushing up from the table. "The night is young and my wallet is heavy. Let's get you something scandalous."
***
I fidgeted, twisting at the ties of my robe as I watched Drake and Dane walk up the path to our house.
They'd spent today out on the boat, taking a bunch of trainee divers through their paces. They'd be expecting dinner—which I had, thanks to Anika—but they'd also be expecting a family night.
No kids, just me.
Nervous excitement mingled with a touch of fear, an insidious voice whispering in the back of my mind, you're not enough.
Four babies had taken their toll on my body. Stretch marks and scars, breasts that hung lower than they had a few years ago. I loved my body, loved the lives it had grown and the adventures we'd had together.
But it was hard to not feel inferior when my men hadn't touched me in months.
"Blue, we're ho—" Dane halted, his eyes widening as he took me in.
"Oi! Get outta my way." Drake elbowed past. "I need a—" He stumbled to a halt, staring at me.
With heat flushing my cheeks, I continued to play with the silk tie, my heart pounding through my chest.
"Welcome home."
"Where are the kids?" Dane blurted out, my heart dropping.
"Um… at sleepovers." I wanted to step closer, wanted to drop the robe and reveal my sexy little kit to their gaze but that evil little voice stopped me.
They don't want you anymore.
With a shuddering breath, I began to undo the tie, slowly pulling the knot apart. "I thought… maybe you two deserved a night off. And perhaps a little something before dinner?"
Summoning all my courage I shrugged off the robe, feeling it glide down my body to pool at my feet.
Immediately Drake and Dane dropped their gazes to my chest, narrowing in on the peekaboo material that barely hid my dark nipples.
"Oh fuck," Drake whispered, his gorgeous body tensing. "This is a seduction."
I allowed a flirty little grin to touch my lips as I began to walk towards them, trailing fingers up my body.
As I drew close, Dane reached out, pulling me into him, Drake watching with hot, hungry eyes.
"This is new," Dane growled, his index finger slipping under the strap on my shoulder. "Have you been a busy little girl, Blue?"
I shuddered at the heat in his tone, my body flooding with desire. Any doubt had fled in the face of their naked desire leaving me throbbing with need.
"Maybe," I whispered leaning my body into him, throwing Drake a flirty look over my shoulder. He'd backed up, leaning against the wall, his arms crossed as he watched us. His cock lay hard and heavy in his jeans, my body aching to move across the room and pull him free.
"Eyes, Blue."
I looked back to Dane, loving the little smile on his face. "You want to strip him, don't you?"
I huffed out a laugh, nodding. "Oh yes."
"You know he likes to watch, baby. So, strip me first."
With trembling hands, I pulled his shirt from his body, dropping it to the side. His belt and jeans followed, Dane helping by toeing off his boots.
I dropped, pulling his socks free then hesitated, his erection gratifyingly tenting his briefs. I reached up, slowly pulling the underwear from his body, a delighted flutter hitting my core as I revealed his cock, the heavy member wonderfully hard and thick, hanging heavy against his thigh.
When his briefs were free, I hesitated, wondering if he wanted me to stay on my knees or rise once more.
"Good girl," he praised, reaching out to glide fingers through my hair. "Tell us what you want, baby. Let's see if we can't make this fantasy come true for you."
I licked my suddenly dry lips, anxiety ratcheting up as I glanced to Drake then back to Dane. "I want you to love me like you used to."
They both sucked in a breath, exchanging a look before dropping to wrap me in their arms.
"Blue, we love you," Drake told me, burying his face in my hair. "Are you doubting that?"
With their arms around me, I broke, tears flooding down my cheeks, the relief so overwhelming that I couldn't hold it in.
"I… I…." My voice broke, my body shaking with my sobs.
"Fuck, I told you something was wrong," Drake barked at Dane.
"Shit, yeah. I'm an idiot. Fuck." They pressed kisses to my shoulders, their hands roaming in comforting motions as I sobbed out my fear, breathing in their touch.
Once calm, Drake cradled me against his chest, my legs were in Dane's lap, his hands gently gliding up and down my calf. Any erection they'd had was long since gone.
"Better?" Dane asked, his fingers digging into the knots in my leg.
"Mm." I closed my eyes, enjoying the closeness, the quiet.
"Sorry, honey, but I need you to tell us what that was about," Drake said quietly, brushing the side of my face with his knuckles. "We need to know so it doesn't happen again."
I shook my head, opening my eyes to look at them. "I thought you were sick of me."
"Oh, baby."
"Never!"
A sad smile tugged at my lips. "We haven't made love in over six months."
"Baby…," Dane sighed, shaking his head. "We nearly lost you. The twins’ was such a difficult birth. Then the blood loss and…." He trailed off, his face pale. "We needed to give you time to recover."
I tilted my head back, looking up at Drake. "That true?"
He nodded, his eyes apologetic. "We thought we were doing the right thing."
"I thought you hated my body. That I wasn't attractive to you anymore."
"Fuck no!"
"Bullshit!"
As one they leaned forward, mouths kissing whatever part of me that was closest to them.
"We love you, Blue. Losing you would have devastated us."
"We just wanted to give you time. Let you heal."
I closed my eyes, giving myself over to the sensation of these men touching me. Their hands were soothing rather than demanding.