I would have started an even bigger war for Todd.
And that realization is so huge I have to reach out a hand to Acorn to steady myself.
Then I hear Mistress Coyle’s voice rise over Simone’s, “It can only mean that he’s been building artillery himself!”
[TODD]
In the smoke and the screaming, Angharrad rocks her way back up to her feet, her Noise not saying nothing now, not saying it in a way that makes me really scared for her, but she’s up again and I’m looking back and I’m seeing it, I’m seeing where the blast came from–
The other army units. Led by Mr Tate and Mr O’Hare, back from collecting the rest of the soldiers, back from collecting the armaments the Mayor was talking about.
Armaments that I for one didn’t know he had.
“Secret weapons only work if they’re secret,” he says, riding back up to me.
He’s smiling wide now.
Cuz here comes a surge of new soldiers from the city road, hundreds of ’em, fresh and screaming and ready to fight–
And already the Spackle are turning–
Already the Spackle are looking back up the hill, trying to see if there’s any way over where the ground exploded–
And there’s another flash and a whistling sound over our heads and–
I flinch and Angharrad screams as another hole is blasted into the hill and more dirt and smoke and Spackle bodies and horned creacher parts go flying into the air.
The Mayor don’t flinch at all, just looks happy as the new soldiers flood round us, as the Spackle army collapses into chaos and turns and tries to run–
And is cut down by our new arrivals–
And I’m breathing heavy–
And I’m watching the tide turn–
And I gotta say–
I gotta say–
(shut up)
I feel a rush as I see it–
(shut up)
I feel relief and I feel joy and I feel my blood pumping as I see the Spackle fall–
(shut up shut up shut up)
“You weren’t worried there, were you, Todd?” the Mayor asks.
I look back at him, dirt and blood drying on my face, the bodies of men and Spackle around us everywhere, a new bright flood of Noise filling the air even tho I didn’t think it could ever get any louder–
“Come!” he says to me. “See what it’s like to be on the winning side.”
And he rides off after the new soldiers.
I ride after him, gun up, but not shooting, just watching and feeling–
Feeling the thrill of it–
Cuz that’s it–
That’s the nasty, nasty secret of war–
When yer winning–
When yer winning, it’s ruddy thrilling–
The Spackle are running back up the hill, climbing over the rubble and running–
Running away from us–
And I raise my gun–
And I aim it at the back of a running Spackle–
And my finger’s on the trigger–
And it’s ready to pull–
And the Spackle stumbles over the body of another Spackle, but it ain’t just one body, it’s two, it’s three–
And then the smoke is clearing and I’m seeing more, I’m seeing bodies everywhere, men and Spackle and horned creachers–
And I’m back in the monastery, back where the Spackle bodies were piled up–
And it don’t feel so thrilling no more–
“CHASE THEM UP THE HILL!” the Mayor shouts to his soldiers. “MAKE THEM SORRY THEY WERE EVER BORN!”
{VIOLA}
“It’s finishing,” I say. “The battle’s ending.”
Bradley let the projection play normally again, and we all saw the arrival of the rest of the army.
Saw the second explosion.
Saw the Spackle turn and try to run back up on themselves, over the wreckage of the bottom of the hill, chaos sending some of them falling into the river, into the road below, into the battle where they didn’t live for long.
The amount of death is making me feel physically sick, throbbing along with my ankles, and I have to lean against Acorn as everyone else argues.
“If he can do that,” Mistress Coyle says, “then he’s even more dangerous to you than I’ve been saying. Is that who you want in charge of the world you’re about to join?”
“I don’t know,” Bradley says. “Are you the only alternative?”
“Bradley,” Simone says, “she’s got a point.”
“She does?”
“We can’t make a new settlement in the middle of a war,” Simone continues. “And this is our last stop. There’s nowhere else for the ships to go. We have to find a way to make it work here, and if we’re in danger–”
“We could land somewhere else on the planet,” Bradley says.
Mistress Coyle takes a sharp breath. “You wouldn’t.”
“There’s no law that says we have to join up with the previous settlement,” Bradley says to her. “We never had any communication from you so we were already landing on the assumption you hadn’t made it. We could just leave you to your war. Find our own place to start life new.”
“Abandon them?” Simone says, sounding shocked herself.
“You’d end up fighting the Spackle anyway,” Mistress Coyle says, “without anyone experienced to help you.”
“Whereas here we’d end up fighting both Spackle and men,” Bradley says. “And probably you, eventually.”
“Bradley–” Simone says–
“No,” I say, loud enough for them to hear me.
Because I’m still watching the projection, watching men and Spackle die–
And I’m still thinking of Todd, of all the death I would have caused for him–
It makes me dizzy.
And I don’t ever want to be in that position again.
“No weapons,” I say. “No bombing anyone. The Spackle are retreating. We beat the Mayor before and if we have to do it again, we will. Same thing for a truce with the Spackle.”
I look at Mistress Coyle’s face, hardening at my words. “No more death,” I say. “Not by my choice, not even for an army that deserves it, Spackle or human. We’ll find a peaceful solution.”
“Well said,” Bradley says strongly. And he looks at me with a face I remember well, a face full of kindness and love and a pride so fierce it stings.
And I have to look away because I know how close I came to having them fire the missile.
“Well, then, if you’re all so sure,” Mistress Coyle says, her voice cold as the bottom of a river. “I’ve got lives to save.”
And before anyone can stop her, she’s gone, running to her cart and driving off into the night.
[TODD]
“CUT THEM DOWN!” the Mayor’s yelling. “SEND THEM RUNNING!”
It don’t matter what he yells, tho, he could be screaming types of fruit and the soldiers would still be surging up the lower part of the zigzag road, climbing over where it’s been blown away, hacking and shooting at the Spackle scrambling up it before ’em.