Whoa. What the fuck? I feigned shock. I had to. “What are you talking about?”
“Things looked a little compromising when I found you two in the pool. Your hands were all over her. She was practically naked.”
My pulse raced. “I don’t know what you thought that was, but we were just playing around.”
Several moments of silence passed. It was awkward as fuck, and I hated every second.
Then Nathan backed off and shrugged. “Okay. If you say so.”
I tried my best to make myself believe what I said next. “There’s nothing going on there, Nathan. I love Farrah...like a sister. She helped take my mind off everything that day. We were having fun, like a couple of kids in the pool. That’s it. You got me?”
He looked at me for a few seconds. “Yeah.”
I recognized the look in his eyes as one of cautious trust, which meant I needed to be careful moving forward.
“Good,” I said.
The silence that followed as we finished dinner told me Nathan was still thinking about it. That sucked. I felt like shit. And I was sweating. Because deep down, I knew what had been happening with Farrah lately wasn’t innocent.
Chapter 5
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Farrah
My shift at the law firm ran from seven to three. It was a cushy job, and what some people might say was a waste of my time. I wasn’t going anywhere in life by filing things and typing up correspondence. But it paid decently, and they didn’t care whether I had a college degree, which made it kind of hard to give up. I’d been working there for the better part of a year. The hours were great because there was never any traffic at three in the afternoon.
One of the first things I did when I got home from the office was check on the girl next door. Nora’s mother left her alone after school. I always felt bad for her because I could relate; I knew all too well what it was like to come home to an empty house when you needed a hug or someone to talk to.
Her mother had given me a key to use so Nora never had to answer the door—to avoid inadvertently opening for the wrong person. (Like I did the other day.) Nora was doing her homework when I came in.
She put down her pencil when she saw me. “Hey, what’s up?”
“Not much. Just checking in on you.”
“I’m still alive.”
“I know. Figured I’d see if you needed anything.”
“Shawn Mendes tickets,” she said.
That made me chuckle. “I meant like something to eat. But is he coming to town?”
“Yeah. I want to see him. I’m desperate.”
I sat down at the table next to her. “Will your mom buy you tickets?”
“She says she doesn’t have the money.”
“Maybe I can ask around and see if I can find affordable tickets.”
To my surprise, she started to cry. “Oh my God. That would be awesome.”
I’d nearly forgotten what it was like to be a lovesick child. Oh wait.
She sniffled. “I forgot to tell you, I saw you in the pool the other day with Jace.”
Speaking of lovesick…
“I heard splashing, and I looked out the window and could see you.”
I nodded. “Yeah…Jace and I were swimming.”
“Do you like him?”
I didn’t know how to answer. “You know Jace is like an older brother to me, right? He’s Nathan’s best friend… But…” I hesitated. Am I really considering telling an eleven-year-old my dirtiest secret? “Between you and me, I have a crush on him.”
Her eyes were like saucers. “He’s handsome.”
“Yeah. He is.”
“Not as cute as Shawn, though. Do you think he likes you?”
“You know…before the other day, I would’ve told you no. But I kind of got this vibe from him when we were hanging out. So, let’s put it this way… If he does like me, I don’t think he wants to like me. It’s kind of depressing because I don’t think anything can ever happen between us.”
Okay, that was definitely way too much to be divulging to a kid.
She sighed. “That’s like me and Shawn. I love him, but nothing can ever happen because he’s a huge star. At least Jace knows you exist.”
“I guess that could be a consolation.” I laughed before becoming paranoid. “Please don’t ever mention to anyone what I just told you, okay? It’s a secret.”
“I won’t say anything.”
“Okay. I’m choosing to trust you.” I smiled.
She returned to writing on her worksheet before turning to me again. “Why do you come over and check on me all the time?”
Shrugging, I sighed. “I guess I can relate to the feeling of being alone. I know I like it when people check in on me, so I figured I would do the same for you.”
“I’m sorry your mom isn’t here. I mean, I’m sorry she died. Your dad, too.”
Momentary sadness washed over me. “Thank you.”
“It was an accident, right? My mom told me.”
“Yeah. Sort of. I don’t really like to talk about it, though, okay?”
Her mouth twisted. “Okay. I wouldn’t want to talk about it, either.”
After some silence, I asked, “Are you sure you don’t want anything? I could make you a sandwich.”
“Nope. I have a Coke in the fridge and some Sour Patch Kids. I’m good.”
“Well, you may be good, but your teeth might think otherwise.”
“I do have a cavity.”
I raised my forehead. “You don’t say…”
I hung around for about fifteen minutes before getting ready to go back home. “Okay, well, if you need me, you have my number. Just ring me, and I can be over in thirty seconds.”
“Literally thirty seconds. How cool is that?” She giggled.
“Yup. Literally.”
“Good luck with Jace!” she shouted as I headed out the door.
Turning around, I placed my index finger over my mouth. “Shh... Remember what I said. Forget I told you about that.”
“Sorry,” she whispered.
I must have needed my head examined for telling a child about my feelings for Jace.
When I returned home, ironically, Jace’s truck was in the driveway. Just like the other day when we’d hung out in the pool, he’d come home from work early.
A rush of excitement hit me, until I entered the house and noticed a pair of women’s shoes under the small table in the foyer. I heard muffled laughter coming from Jace’s bedroom at the far end of the hall.
My cheeks burned.
He brought a girl home in the middle of the day?
He’d never done that before.
Not only was I extremely jealous, but I felt like a complete idiot. Ever since our jaunt in the pool and our brief yoga session, I’d been so excited for the next opportunity to be alone with him. I’d convinced myself that maybe he’d felt something when he held me in his arms for those few moments. God, I’m such a fool.
No way could I stay at the house this afternoon. And he knew I got home from work around this time, so he didn’t even have the decency to sneak her over here when the house would be empty. Why the hell wasn’t he working, anyway?