“Leave your shirt like that, bella. I wanna be able to see those beauties the entire day just like they are,” I inform her.
“Um, okay,” she mutters, unsure of herself.
Taking her hand in mine I guide her out to the main room of the cabin. I stop in the living room to light a fire while Blake goes to let Blue out to do her thing. She’s good with her dog and I’m glad she’s taking such good care of her.
Soon the fire is going, and I stand back to my full height and go into the kitchen where Blake is already cleaning up the mess from last night. Maybe I should have cleaned it up before going to bed. I don’t know.
I help Blake finish cleaning up without either of us speaking and then I slide her out of the kitchen. I make us some sandwiches ala De Luca. This is the only thing I know how to make. If it weren’t for Leanna, the housekeeper back home, I’d starve or be fat due to eating fast food all the time.
I’m just glad I’m able to at least do this for the woman I’m claiming as mine. This reminds me. I need to call Christian not just for and update but to let him know about his sister and myself. Shit, I hope he doesn’t end up wanting to murder me when I tell him.
Then after I speak to him, I’m going to speak to Blake. There’s no way I’m letting what she’s dealing with to continue. No fuckin’ way.
Being mine means Blake is now a part of the De Lucas and no one fucks with a De Luca.
No one.
Chapter Eight
Blake
I never knew anything could feel so good. I thought I’d come out here and freeze out those I’m done with. To figure out the next step in my life. I never expected I’d be coming out here and finding myself giving my virginity to a man who I don’t know.
One that my body desires to be with.
Snap. Crackle. Pop
My body is humming for Theo to take me again.
His words swirl around in my head and though they confuse me, they also leave me feeling warm inside. I want to ask him what he means by me being his now, but I don’t know how. It’s all so much to take in at one time.
“I can feel you thinking from all the way over here, Snowflake,” Theo says, breaking through my thoughts while placing a plate on the counter in front of me. Glancing down at it, I notice he’s made sandwiches with bacon and cheese melted together.
Yum.
“Umm, I honestly don’t know what to think,” I murmur, lifting my gaze up to meet his from across the counter. Even with the space between us it doesn’t stop my longing to launch myself at him.
God, what’s wrong with me? Did he like snap something in me when he took my virginity? Is it normal to want him again so soon?
“Blake, baby, eat and we’ll talk,” he says with a hint of amusement in his voice. The side of his lip quirks up and I’m left wondering if he knew what I’d been thinking.
Impossible. He can’t know such a thing.
Grabbing the plate, I move over to the couch closer to the fire he’d started while I’d let Blue out to do her thing. With it still snowing I hope we won’t run out of wood for the fireplace. I only brought in so much, not knowing how much I would need.
I might want to check the weather app on my phone to see how much longer it’s supposed to be snowing.
Oh crap.
That reminds me.
“Um, where’s your car, Theo?” I blurt out the question and take a bite out of my sandwich, doing my best not to moan at the flavors teasing my taste buds. Oh, I love it. He’s used some type of seasoning in it as well.
“Car’s in the ditch up the road right after I turned down the lane. I’ll need to go down there when the snow lets up and see about getting it out,” Theo grumbles.
“Do you want me to help?” I ask. He shouldn’t have to do it by himself.
“No, Snowflake. I want you to stay in here where it’s warm. No reason for us both to be out there freezing our asses off.” Theo reaches out to brush a stray hair behind my ear as he says this.
The gentleness of his touch surprises me.
Neither of us says anything while we consume the rest of our sandwiches. He’d made me one and two for himself.
Once done, I turn to sit on both my knees while facing him.
“What do you mean by me now being yours?” I ask, allowing him to see the confusion on my face.
Theo reaches out, puts both hands at my waist, lifts me up, and pulls me over until I’m straddling his lap. “If we’re having this talk, we’re doing it with you as close to me as possible.”
“Um, okay,” I whisper and lick my suddenly dry lips. Theo’s eyes watch this movement, and I don’t miss the heated look he gets.
“When you allowed me to take your virginity that was you giving yourself to me, Blake, and I don’t take that lightly. You could have told me but you didn’t. You wanted me to take it. There’s a connection between the two of us. I know you can feel it. I do as well. We’re going to see where you and I go from here. Meaning when we leave this cabin, it’ll be together,” Theo declares, his hands slide under my flannel shirt and run along my sides trailing his fingers across my skin.
I at least have panties on this time around and there is a barrier between the two of us. Shoot, I honestly wish I didn’t have the thin material so he could simply open his jeans and slide himself right inside.
Hmm, I like the idea.
Stop. Stop. Stop.
Get it together.
Theo isn’t just a piece of meat.
He’s right, there is a connection between the two of us. I’ve felt it from the moment I saw him. I didn’t want him out there in the freezing weather. Didn’t matter to me at the time he’d been a stranger.
He still is, for the most part, but the difference is I know I can trust him even if I’m upset with my brother for lying to me.
But would I really want to go somewhere with him after leaving this cabin? Could I trust in his words that he’s not with another woman? I have to. I mean otherwise me allowing him to take me the way he did would be meaningless.
My mind is warped because of my parents and the way they live their lives. I’m not meant to live any sort of way but as they want me to.
Leaving this cabin and going with Theo would mean I escape their precious hold on my life. I could be free of them.
“Where would we be going?” I ask out of curiosity.
“Home, where you should have been all along.” My brows furrow at his answer.
“I’m not sure I understand what you mean about it being where I should’ve been all along,” I say, needing him to clarify.
“I mean, Snowflake. You should have been at my home all along since that is where your brother lives as well,” Theo murmurs, his hands coming out from under my shirt to reach up and cup either side of my face. “You don’t have anything holding you back, do you?”
Do I?
At my apartment, I only have my personal belongings I keep hidden out of sight so my mother doesn’t see them. My laptop is there as well with all my books. Those are the only things I would want. I could easily get them and leave the rest behind. As for my parents, I could care less if I saw them again. I’m not worried about them.
“No, there’s nothing for me to go home for other than a few personal belongings I want to be able to keep,” I utter the words slightly breathless.