“She doesn’t need to do that,” I tell him.
“Now, Dez,” he says in a harsh tone.
“I said no. She didn’t do anything wrong. She’s only looking out for you. Don’t force her to apologize for that,” I snap. Dez’s eyes now come to rest on mine, a softer look coming over her. Sly tightens his arm around me, seeming uncomfortable.
“Fine. Stop bein’ such a dick, Dez.”
“I’m not. She understands why I said what I did.” She smirks just as I hear the rumble of bikes. It doesn’t take long for the other guys to come filtering in. A few I saw at the rally but some I didn’t. The guy I know as Gauge walks up and wraps his arms around Dez, pulling her back into him. The loudness in the room amplifies as the guys come in. Girls scurry around looking for the single men, I assume.
“Come on,” Sly says pulling me along. I follow him willingly although I want to stay out here and see if I can find out anything. I’m guessing today isn’t the day for that. He heads down the hall toward the middle and pushes a door open before ushering me in.
“This yours?” I ask over my shoulder. He closes the door and nods his head.
“When I’m here. I don’t stay very often; I got a house about ten minutes from here.” I nod my head, making a mental note to find out where that is.
“Why not stay here? Aren’t you always here?”
“Not all that time, no. A majority of it, I suppose I am. It’s family. I wanna keep my family close, ya know?”
A sob clogs my throat as I nod my head. Sadness sweeps through me because of what I’ve dealt with in the past the few months. My heart hurts. My chest is heavy but if I can get the information that they need, I can have closure.
“You okay?” Sly asks moving toward me slowly. His hands come to rest on my shoulders and the weight of everything slowly becomes too much to hold in. Tears stream down my cheeks as Sly pulls me into his chest. How do I do this? Why did I think I could? I try to pull out of his arms, but he only holds me tighter. My chest is caving in. This isn’t what I had planned for.
“What happened?” He asks as if he doesn’t already know. Granted he doesn’t know who I am, but this is all his fault.
“My brother was killed not long ago,” I whisper as the world slowly shatters around me once more.
“Jesus. I’m sorry, darlin’.” His words don’t mean shit to me. They should. They should mean everything to me because they had a hand in it. I know they did.
“He was only thirty-two. He hadn’t lived yet,” I sob as I think about him. How could anyone do that to him? As tears streak down my cheeks, I realize what I’m doing. I’m standing here crying in the arms of the enemy.
Chapter Four
I keep hearing the girls talking about fate as I sit in the kitchen and eat. How we all have one that we are destined to. I wonder if that’s true. If that’s really how this fucked up world works. I don’t know how much of that I believe. Fate means shit in our world.
I’m on edge. My mind has wandered to every possible situation that this club has ever been in. Every kill. Especially the ones in the last few months. After what Fab said to me the other night and the look in her eyes, I knew something was off. I couldn’t pinpoint it, but I could feel it.
“What’s wrong with you?” Wolf asks as he comes to stand next to the counter. He leans his hands on it and waits.
“Thinkin’ about some shit. That girl, Fab? She said some shit about her brother bein’ killed a few months ago.”
“And? What’s that have to do with you?”
“I don’t know, brother. She looked at me like I fuckin’ snapped his goddamn neck or some shit. Then she freaked out and left,” I tell him. She did. She let me hold her for a while but then she freaked out and ran out of here. I was going to go after her, but I couldn’t. Why should I chase that girl? I don’t know shit about her. She isn’t shit to me.
“You think we had somethin’ to do with it?” Wolf asks clearly thinking the same thing as me.
“Can’t say. It don’t make sense, though. Why wouldn’t she just say somethin’ if that’s what she was thinkin’?”
“Because she’s hidin’ shit,” Gauge chimes in as he walks into the kitchen.
“What the fuck do you know?”
“I know that Dez is on edge about that girl. Somethin’ about her she don’t like.”
“Dezzy doesn’t like anyone,” I grumble. The guys laugh knowing it’s not a lie.
“Bring her ass back. Get her to talk and see what’s up,” Wolf says.
“No. I’m not chasin’ no piece of ass,” I tell them with a laugh.
“Don’t have to. The piece of ass is in the main room,” Shaft’s voice says from behind me. I turn my head to look at him, only to see the smirk on his face.
“What the hell do you mean she’s here?”
“Just what I said. She’s out front lookin’ for your ass.” I shove out of my chair and listen as the guys laugh behind me. They’re no doubt giving me shit behind my back, but I don’t care. I step into the main room and see her standing there in a pair of cut off shorts that show off her sexy thighs and a tank top that hugs her tits. Damn, that woman.
“Hey,” she says when she sees me.
“You ran outta here,” I respond. Not that I was pissed about it. I mean, hell I did want to get my cock wet but that isn’t what bothered me. She bolted.
“I know. I haven’t told anyone about my brother since it happened. I guess it was just a little harder to talk about than I thought it would be.” I nod my head understanding that.
“You came back.” She nods this time but doesn’t say anything more. I don’t know what’s running around in her head. I don’t know why she’s here. I don’t know why the fuck I even care.
“Look, I don’t date. I don’t know what I’m doing here. I just felt…”
“A connection.” I finish for her. She nods her head but there’s something distant in her eyes. Something she isn’t telling me.
“Is that weird?” she asks wrinkling up her nose.
“No. I felt it too. I don’t know what it is. Why did you come back?” I’ve never felt a connection to anyone like this. Not even Shelby had this effect on me, and I was married to her crazy ass. Fab is different. I can feel it, but there’s also a lot of backstory that I don’t know about her. That much is evident in those dark eyes, and for some reason I have a really bad feeling about it.
“I don’t know. I’ve never felt that kind of energy.”
“You wanted to see if it was real,” I tell her. She nods her head and bites her lip. Fuck, why does she have to do that? I step into her space, bringing my hand up to her cheek.
“It’s real, darlin’. I feel it too,” I whisper as I lean down, touching my lips to hers. She doesn’t move, in fact, she seems to be holding her breath. That is until I kiss her harder. Her lips slowly begin to move with mine and an explosion erupts on my tongue. My tongue snakes into her mouth, tasting her for the first time. All of that energy surges inside of me. It’s strange but unique. It’s something I’ve never felt but don’t want to let go of. It’s intoxicating. Feeling the moan that rumbles inside of her, I wrap my other hand around her waist and pull her body closer to mine. Her tits press into me and my cock hardens even more. Fab pulls back first, panting with swollen lips. I like that look on her.