The thought of living like that caused Natalie’s stomach to knot. “The only time I’ve seen her rattled is when my grandfather fell and broke his hip. Now he’s having something Mom calls ‘cognitive issues.’ I really wanted to see her tonight to hear more about that. Poor Grandy. Maybe that’s why Mom couldn’t come—something with Grandy.” She hugged herself, picturing the lovely man who had been the father she’d lacked, the nanny looking after her, the homework mentor and tutor, the adored playmate of her childhood.
Chapter 3
Caroline bumped her way down the stairs of her apartment, lugging an overstuffed suitcase. She always brought extra supplies to a show—fabric and thread, pins, scissors, touch-up for makeup, towels, a flashlight and double-sided tape, and wipes in case of model meltdowns . . . or designer meltdowns.
She was not going to have a meltdown today. Totally the opposite. Today was going to be a huge leap forward in her career. Finally, after so many abject failures and near misses, her Chrysalis line had been selected for the Emerging Talent program. The collection bearing her name would be showcased on the runway in front of all the fashion elite in the city.
If she impressed the right people, she would get her shot at creating apparel under her own name.
That, she knew, would be life-changing. People back home had never quite understood her aspirations. They had been kind enough. They were quick to say they appreciated her creativity. Yet they’d always been mystified by her life and work. Her entry-level jobs, most of them involving long hours and low pay, had struck them as thankless and unrewarding. Which was quite an indictment, coming from her family of restaurateurs.
But a line of apparel—that would be concrete proof that she’d set out on the right path. A ready-to-wear collection was a tangible achievement, something everyone could see. That alone was thrilling. It also gave Caroline the kind of fulfillment she’d always sought—the satisfaction of a particular creative hunger.
She had been focused on this goal for eight seasons of working for Mick Taylor. She’d learned a lot, but it wasn’t her dream. The dream was what she did after she went home, after she’d spent uncounted hours designing season after season of cutting-edge fashions under the keen eye of Rilla Stein. She’d learned to subsist on microwave burritos and too much caffeine, staying up long into the night to create something wholly her own, an exuberant expression of her unique aesthetic.
She pulled her gear along the sidewalk toward Illumination, dreaming of a day when she’d have assistants and stylists to help. Today’s show venue had a long runway and brilliant lighting, a waterfall backdrop, and tons of backstage monitors so she wouldn’t miss a moment. Every time she pictured her collection on display, she had to pinch herself.
She hoped her outfit was okay. She had opted for stark black and white, her usual work attire. The skinny black pants and boxy white top, chunky jewelry and flat shoes were well suited for rushing around the city.
The backstage was divided into two wings, east and west, separated by a folding wall. Caroline was assigned to the east side. In the staging area, a buzz of excitement vibrated through the air, which smelled of hair spray and aniline. She joined the flow of rushing designers, dressers, assistants, models, producers, photographers and their entourages, bloggers, and reporters. It was a ballet of barely controlled chaos as showtime approached. The established designers would show their collections, and Caroline’s debut would come at the very end.
She wove a path through the racks and found her station. She checked her notes and spotted Angelique standing on a riser and chatting with Orson Maynard, who was furiously taking notes.
“I heard a rumor that you’re responsible for all this lovely,” Orson said, regarding the fantasy ball gown Caroline had designed for Mick Taylor’s line.
“The garment’s my design, but all the lovely comes from Angelique.” Caroline noticed a raw edge peeking out of the bodice. “Hold still,” she said, swiftly threading a needle to tack it into place.
Daria arrived, huffing and puffing as she set down a box of accessories. She stepped back to admire Angelique. “Wow.”
“How are you feeling?” Caroline took a chunky cocktail ring from the box and tried it on Angelique.
“I’m good,” said Daria. “I’d rather be out on the runway, but you’re the only designer in need of a massively pregnant model.” She selected a makeup brush and touched up Angelique’s cheekbones.
“You both looked incredible at my presentation,” said Caroline.
Orson bustled forward with his notepad. “And . . . ?” he asked.
Caroline had forgotten he was there. She ducked her head and busied herself by sorting through the accessories.
“You’re not supposed to have heard anything.” Caroline suppressed a riff of excitement.
“You know how the rumors fly,” he told her.
“What did you hear?”
“That your originals have been selected for the Emerging Talent program.”
She tried not to react. Tried not to hyperventilate. “Oh?”
“Stomp your foot once if it’s true, twice if it’s not.”
“It is true,” Angelique murmured between strokes of Daria’s makeup brush. “But you cannot say anything about it yet.”
“She’s right,” said Caroline. “This whole conversation has to be off the record.”
“Of course.” Orson put away his notes. “So I take it you’re stomping once.”
Caroline couldn’t keep the grin from her face. “The whole world will see at the end of today’s show.”
“It’s so awesome,” Daria said. “When I saw the work she submitted to the panel, I knew they’d pick her.”
“Now I’m salivating,” said Orson.
“I’ve barely been able to sleep or eat since I got the call.” Caroline was bursting. The moment she’d heard the news, her entire world had shifted on its axis.
“Can you set my phone by me?” Angelique asked. “I need to call my kids.”
Caroline propped the phone on a rack close by, and Angelique made a video call. Her daughter picked up, poking her face in close. “Maman,” she said in her little Minnie Mouse voice, and then asked something in Haitian Kreyòl.
“At the show, ti cheri mwen. Tell your brother to come.”
The picture tilted as Addie called for Flick. The two of them leaned in close, chattering to their mother in a rapid patois of French and English.
“Her kids are so danged cute,” Daria said.
Caroline poked her face next to Angelique’s. “Hi, guys! Remember me?”
“Caroline!” Addie clapped her hands. “You made me a hood with a mask.”
“That’s right. For when you need to hide from the paparazzi.”
“What’s paparazzi?” asked Flick.
“All the people who want to take your picture when you’re getting coffee,” said Caroline.
“I don’t like coffee,” Flick said.
“Then you probably don’t have to worry about the paparazzi,” said Angelique.
“When are you coming home, Maman?” asked Addie.