I caught my dad’s reflection in the rearview mirror. He looked back at me with a question in his eyes.
“Put it this way,” he said. “You can be mad at someone and still love them with all your heart.”
We pulled out of the driveway. Aretha sat between Robin and me. She was only a few months old, and still had her puppy-soft fur and clumsy paws.
Our neighbor Mr. Sera was cutting yellow roses from his garden. We’d already said official good-byes. He waved and we waved back, like we were on our way to the Grand Canyon or Disney World.
“Does Mr. Sera have a cat?” I asked. “A really big cat?”
“Just Mabel,” my mom answered. “The Chihuahua with an attitude. Why?”
I glanced back at the rear windshield, but it was blocked by boxes and bags.
“No reason,” I said.
My dad cranked up the volume on B.B. King, who was still pretty sure nobody loved him, including his mom.
Aretha cocked her head and howled. She liked to sing along, especially to blues songs. Although she liked the Wiggles too.
We drove a few blocks. My lower lip quivered, but I didn’t cry.
My mom sighed softly. “Let the adventure begin,” she said.
21
If you ever have to live in your car, you are going to have some problems with feet. Especially if you’re stuck in there with your little sister and your mom and your dad and your puppy and your imaginary friend.
There are many kinds of feet problems.
Stinky dad feet.
The Magic Marker smell of nail polish on your mom’s toes because she says she still wants to look nice so please just deal with it.
Sister feet kicking you just as you’re falling asleep.
The scratchy surprise of dog feet trying to wake you up.
Imaginary friend feet tiptoeing on your head.
I thought hard about the feet problem. Finally I came up with a plan. What’s the worst that can happen, is how I figured it.
What I did is I took a cardboard TV box we found behind Wal-Mart. I smushed it flat. I drew on the outside of the box and the inside too. I only had three markers and one dried out when the cap fell under the backseat. So it was mostly just red dogs with blue eyes. And blue cats with red eyes.
I put stars on the inside. They seemed like a good thing to think about before you went to sleep.
I wrote kep out jacksons rum on the top. Mom said, too bad we had to leave our dictionary behind. Dad said, if only it really was rum.
Every night I opened up my box and slipped my sleeping bag inside it. When I crawled inside, I felt like a caterpillar in a cocoon. It was almost like my old room, where I could think without anyone bugging me.
When Robin kicked me in her sleep, she hit the box. Which was not exactly the same as kicking me.
Unfortunately, Aretha liked to sleep with me. So it could get a little dog-breath-y.
Also, the box didn’t help much with the stinky dad feet.
I knew we were lucky because we had our old Honda minivan, which had lots of room. I met a kid who lived for a whole year in one of those VW cars. It was red and round like a ladybug and just about as tiny. The poor kid had to sleep sitting up, squished between his two little sisters.
Another reason we were lucky was because my sleeping box was just decoration. Some people actually live in boxes on the street.
I wasn’t looking on the bright side. It’s better to have a big car than a little one when you are living in it. And it’s better to have a box in a car than a box on a street.
Those were just facts.
I wasn’t like my dad, who kept saying we weren’t homeless.
We were just car camping.
22
I didn’t think much about the cat tail–windshield wiper for a while. Things were so weird I guess I didn’t want to add any extra weirdness.
Our first night in the minivan was kind of fun. We drove to a park near the Golden Gate Bridge. A man had a telescope to look at the sky, and he showed us the Big Dipper and Orion. Across the water, the lights of San Francisco covered the ground like lazy stars.
We were going to just sleep in the parking lot. But a security guy knocked on the window. He told us we had to get moving, and then he waved his flashlight around like a Star Wars lightsaber.
We drove to Denny’s, a restaurant that’s open 24 hours. My mom knew one of the cooks, and he asked the manager if we could park there for just one night. He said yes and even let us have some pancakes that were too burnt for the customers.
We had more burnt pancakes in the morning. By then everybody was grumpy and sore. Only Aretha was in a good mood. She loves pancakes.
My parents didn’t have any work scheduled that day, so we headed to the public library to kill time and wash up. My mom and dad took turns staying outside with Aretha. It’s dangerous to leave a dog in a hot car.
The library had air-conditioning and soft chairs. The bathrooms were clean, which was a nice plus.
I never used to think about things like is a bathroom clean or not. Whenever I took a bath, my mom would say, “Here comes Hurricane Jackson,” because I made such a mess.
One of my favorite bath experiments is about something scientists call buoyancy. Will It Float? is what I call it. It can get a little messy but it’s very interesting. For example, if you drop a mostly full bottle of ketchup in the tub, it will not float. But it will turn the water an awesome color.
It will also annoy your mom.
We stayed at the library most of the day. The librarian in the children’s department even shared her sandwich with Robin and me. She had Ritz crackers, too, and she gave all of those to Robin.
After that, Robin decided she was going to be a librarian when she grew up. If the animal scientist thing doesn’t work out, I might become a librarian too.
23
We’d only been living in our van for four days when somebody stole my mom’s purse, which had most of our money in it because my dad’s wallet was falling apart.
After we told a policeman, he wanted to know our address so if they found the money they could give it back.
We are between addresses is what my mom told him.
“Ah,” said the policeman. He nodded like he’d figured out a hard math problem.
My parents and the policeman talked for a while. He gave them the address of two homeless shelters where people can sleep at night. The dads go to one place and the moms and kids go to another, he explained.
“No way,” said my dad. “Not happening.”
Robin said, “We are car camping.”
The policeman looked at Aretha, who was licking his shiny black shoe.
He said that no animals were allowed at either shelter.
I asked if that included puppies.
“Sadly,” he said.
I told him my teacher Mr. Vandermeer had pet rats.
“Rats are especially not allowed,” said the policeman.
There are good rats and bad rats, I told him. I said white rats like the ones my teacher had, Harry and Hermione, were very clean animals. But wild rats could make you sick.
Then I told the policeman how Mr. Vandermeer was teaching his rats to play basketball with a teeny ball for a science experiment. Rats are amazingly intelligent.
“Basketball,” the policeman repeated. He looked at my parents like maybe they should be worried about me. Then he gave my mom a little white card with phone numbers on it.